We have a donor!

We met with our RE today and are moving forward with donor sperm. They took some cultures and blood from me today. I also found out what blood type I am so we were able to broaden our search. We ended up finding a donor with my blood type since we weren't having much luck with my E's. I am hoping to order the sperm wed or thurs since I have to fax over the consent form and have them put it in the computer system before I can order any.
In Condo news we had our walk through this afternoon and there was a damaged kitchen door that they still haven't repaired. E went CRAZY!!! He was ranting and raving. Hopefully they will take care of it by Wed. We are closing Wed at 2:30. We will now be house poor and not only IF poor.

Update of my life

We found two potential donors we like. We have one that has the same blood type as E and one that does not. I think we both like the one that has a different blood type than him but E feels we should pick sonmeone with the same type. We will talk to the dr about his concerns and see what he says.

I didn't realize how much a vial of sperm went for. 525?!?! I wanted to buy a lot and freeze it but after closing on the condo and doing everything for that we are tapped. Hopefully this will do the trick and we won't need too many vials.

We are closing on the condo on the 21st. It only took 3 months! Very excited. We did some shopping today so that was fun. At least that will be one iess thing to worry about in aprox. 2 weeks.

Is my husband that unusual looking?

I can't seem to find a sperm donor with the same characteristics as hubby. I'm not really asking for much....brown hair (any shade will do), blue eyes, 5'9-5'11 height and being that my husband is 240lbs I think getting a bigger guy makes more sense. O yea one other thing we would like the same blood type. I can understand that last one being a bit hard to match but everything else should be no prob right? WRONG!!! They either have blonde hair and blue eyes or brown hair and green eyes or they 6'2 and 230lbs or there 5'9 and 150lbs. Why can't one thing in this TTC process be easy?!?!?!?! I am realizing that I am just going to have to break down and give in on some of the things. I just may end up with a blonde hair green eyed kid that is 6'4 and 170lbs even though both my husband and I are short, brown haired and not exactly thin.

Everyone is pregnant but me

I hate to be bitter and all but I am. Another pregnancy announcement! Two girls I know just gave birth, two of my cousins are due in the summer, 1 friend is due in June, and now 2 in the fall. Will it ever be my time?

I think we are going with a sperm donor. I will call Monday to make an appt with RE and meet with the pyschologist. After I do that I can start looking for a donor.

Another round of IVF?

We met with the RE today and he thinks I should try another cycle. He thinks I will regret not doing it and he feels I'm not giving DH the chance to have a biological child. He understands why I wouldn't want to do a 3rd cycle. He told us all about donor sperm but doesn't want us to rush into anything. We are on a break until the summer and then we will make a choice.

PGD Results

They got the results from the PGD this am and all my embies had an unbalanced translocation. I have nothing to transfer. They had 9 embies to test ( 7 from this cycle and 2 snowbabies from last time). I can't believe this, I thought I would have 1 or 2 to transfer. My heart is broken. I will not be doing IVF again. Going to look into donor sperm and do an iui cycle or start saving for adoption.

7

7 eggs fertilized. I was hoping for more. I know 7 is good but I can't help but be disappointed.

Better than last time

I am back from my ER. I had 14 eggs, double what I had last time. Everything went smoothly this time thank goodness! I am a little crampy but nothing too terrible. Looking foward to my fert report tomorrow.

Luck of the Irish?

I triggered yesterday and am scheduled Wed @ 7:30 for my ER. Hoping that I'll have some luck of the Irish since it's St. Patrick's Day. My mother thinks I should wear all green. HAHAHA

The shot went well. I iced for 15 min before and I didn't feel a thing. It was bleeding a bit but nothing major.

Praying that I have lots of eggs!

Grow Follies Grow

So far I have been stimming for 5 nights and have been going to blood work and U/S every freaking day. After what happened last cycle the are watching me closely so instead of everyother day U/S it's every day. It works then I'm happy to oblige.

Tonight I will add the Ganirelix to the mix. The nurse thinks I still have about 4 more days till I'm ready to trigger but I think it will be sooner. Wishfull thinking maybe?!?!? I'm starting to get uncomfortable now. I'm crampy and just feel those follies growing.

I have 30 follies all together but 15 are all around the same size and those are the ones they are watching. She said there are 3 more that will probably catch up so she is thing 18 total. WHOOOHOOO much better then my 7 last cycle. Hopefully they will all produce a healthy little egg.

So in very sad news, we had plans last night so I was kind of rushed when I was doing my injection and by accident I pushed the plunger before I stabbed myself and lost half the liquid and had to start over!!! Ihad to throw out 2 bottles of Menopur and 2 bottles of Bravelle. I wasnted to scream. Hopefully I'll still have enough and won't have to order more because of my screw up.

Going to go give my follies a pep talk!

IVF # 2

Yestersday was day 2 of my cycle so off to my baseline I went. Everything looked good so we started injections last night. I took 3 Bravelle and 2 Menopur. A lot more meds than the last cycle, hopefully that'll do the trick. We are looking at an estimated ER date of 3/16 which would make it an ET date of 2/21.

I will update after a few days and give you a follie check and bitch will all my symptoms.

Starting Over

I met with my RE last week to see what he felt went wrong and where do we go from here.

He felt that the Lupron wasn't doing it's job correctly and that is why we only got 7 eggs. I had lots of other small follicles but they other 7 follicles were large and ready to come out so they had no choice but to trigger. He is hoping next time to get lots of follicles that will grow at the same pace.

This time we will be doing an Antagon Protocol. I started BCP's on 2/9 and should see AF the 2nd week of March and then I will start stimming again.

They also froze the 4 poor quality embryos and will thaw them out 3 days before my 5dt and hopefully they will grow some more so we can do PGD on them. The Lab director and RE aren't too optomistic about them but they say it is worth a shot.

In Condo news we are officialy in Contract and will be having the inspection tomorrow afternoon. At least I have the condo to focus on but I must admitt I still spend most of my time focused on IVF and babies. Hopefully my parents and husband will have to do all the packing and unpacking since I will be too tired from early pregnancy to do anything. =)

Cycle Over

Cycle cancelled. No embryos strong enough to be genetically tested.
I had a 1 cell, 2 cell, 3 cell and a 5 cell. Next cycle will be in March. There is are no words to describe how sucky this is.

Egg Retrievel

My ER was yesterday and it was horrible. I woke up screaming in pain. I was bleeding and oozing so they needed to pack my insides with gauze which was causing a lot of pressure and pain. They had me relax for about and hour hoping that the bleeding would stop and they could take all the packing out this did not go according to plan though. When they first brought be back in they tried removing everything w/o anesthesia but I couldn't stand the pain so they had to put me under again but the bleeding did not stop so they couldn't remove the packing. They sent me home finally at 2:00 when I had a 9:15 retrieval with instructions to stay in bed and return in the AM for them to try to take the packing out again and see if I needed stitches. I was in a lot of pain last night but I actually slept a lot which was good. I woke up in morning and saw that I bled though a pad and I guess from all the packing I also had an "accident". It was HORRIBLE!!!!

I went back in the morning for 6:45 AM and they put me back under and took all the packing out and put in a few stitches. I feel 100 times better today and I stopped bleeding. MY ET is scheduled for Wed and hopefully that will go smoothly.

FERT. REPORT: They only retrieved 7 eggs and as of this morning only 4 fertilized.
I am very upset about the low numbers but it is out of my hands, I am just hoping that the 4 keep dividing and that they are genetically correct.

Triggered!

We triggered last night. YAY!!!! It was not bad at all. I iced the area for a bit before and when my husband did the shot I felt a slight pinch but that was it. About an hour after the shot I started vomiting but that could of also been from the antibiotics.
I have to be at the RE tomorrow at 8:15 and my ER is scheduled for 9:15. Let's hope I have lots of healthy eggs and turn into healthy and excellent quality embryos. My ET is scheduled for next Wed since we know for sure we are doing a 5 day transfer because we are doing PGD. I am excited and nervous.

BTW.....oafter three offers our bid was accepted! We got our condo and I can't wait to get everything started with that.

This just may be my year!!!!!

We put in a bid for a Condo. YAY! I really hope we get it. We put in a bid for 45,000 less then what they are asking but it is in a development and there are very few units left and my understanding is they really want to get rid of the remaining units. It is 2bd/2ba and it is brand new and I love it!

Follie Check: I have 6 on the right side and 2 on the left side. They put me back on Bravelle tonight. 1 Bravelle and 1 Menopur. I am starting to get really uncomfortable on my right side. It is like this heaviness. I can't really explain. I go back tomorrow for another U/S and B/W. Tonight is shot # 7. I hope I am ready to trigger soon. I just want to know what is going to be. Waiting makes me anxious, so you can imagine how this whole IVF process is making me feel.

Follie Check

I went in today for a blood test and ultrasound to check on my follicles. I have 2 on my left side and 1 on the right that are dominate and then they said I have a bunch of smaller ones. I honestly don't know if this is good or bad. I think it is good since I've done 4 injections. They took me off the Bravelle and told me to only take 2 Menopur's tonight. Once again I have no clue if this is good or bad. From the research I did, it seems that the Bravelle helps create more follicles and the Menopur help mature the follicles. So I guess they are trying not to over stimulate me. Who the heck knows!

The injections at night seem to be getting better but I don't want to jinx myself. I already went through two boxes of Menopur. I really hope I won't need to order more.

I'm getting a little bit more bloated. You can definitely tell there is something going on in there. Yesterday I had to wear a dress to work because the thought of pants digging into me just didn't float my boat. The injections also seem to be causing some major constipation. I am taking the antibiotics also so I'm surprised I'm not having the opposite reaction. I also have a lot of cramping and tugging, it actually feels a lot like when I was pregnant. Lovely huh?!?!?

We went and looked at a Co-op today and it was horrible. O well. Tomorrow we are going to go look at a Condo but who knows if we can really afford it.

We're Stimming!

I started stimming last night. I took 1 Bravelle and 2 Menopur yesterday and today. I also decreased my lupron from 20 units to 10 units. Tomorrow morning I will go in for blood work and I guess they will adjust the dosages. I felt crampy today and I now I have a headache. Yesterday the injection hurt like a MOFO but today it was perfectly fine. I will never understand why some days I'm dying and other days there is no problem.

In other news Hubby and I are looking into buying a Co-op. We got pre-qualified for a mortgage today. I am really hoping we can find something great and do this. We are throwing our money away renting. According to my calculations I think we would save money if we bought something. We are renting a huge apt. right now so when we buy we would lose a lot of space but I'm ok with that just to have something I could call my own.

Maybe 2010 will bring a baby and a Co-op!

Feeling Better

Thank you all for your support and advice!

I started my Lupron Injections on 12/29. I was terrified the first morning but after two "test swings" I was able to do it all by myself. I was very proud of myself and so was hubby. We have our morning routine now, he gets up at 5:30 takes the lupron out of the fridge, then he wakes me up at 6 and he watches me inject myself, he goes to work and I go back to bed for 2 hours. The injections didn't hurt at all at first but now they are starting to hurt a bit. I guess it's because I am going over the same spots. My left side hurts a lot less then the right side. The needle doesn't seem to want to go in on the right side. The side effects have been that it seems to make me vomit. I started vomiting after the 4th day. Thank goodness no migraines though!

AF arrived yesterday evening and of course the IVF nurses do not answer calls during the weekend. I left a message and they'll call me on Monday and tell me what to do next. I'm assuming they'll have me come in on Tuesday for U/S and blood and then I can start stimming!!!!! I am so excited. This cycle will be over before I know it and hopefully it will result in a healthy baby.

Hubby and I seemed to be doing a lot better since I started the Lupron. I think I'm a little less on edge since now I feel like I am doing something and things are happening. Where as before I was just waiting for months.